Puppy

I have this issue that’s been keeping me from getting work done. My puppy has seen me working on scripts, producing comedy shows, swearing about work e-mails, reacting to the news etc., over the last few years, and now she associates me being at the computer with stress. And she thinks she needs to help me. She crawls between my legs, nudges my elbow with her snout, stands up with her front paws on the arm of my chair, and generally won’t leave me alone whenever I sit at my desk. Once she has my attention, she’ll lead me to the laser pointer or the door (where her harness is) and then do this HINT HINT move where she looks at an object, then at me, then makes a noise…. She’s telling me get off the computer and let’s go play.

So she’s constantly climbing all over me when I’m trying to get work done and it’s super annoying and slows me down but really, she’s not wrong. This is a bullshit meaningless world we’ve created and we should all spend less time in front of screens and more time at the dog park.

Mental Health Awareness Month

Happy mental health health awareness month!!! I’ve been super anxious and depressed lately!!! But I hope it’s all a necessary step towards living a happier, healthier life!!! I don’t know!!! I don’t like the distinction between mental and physical health because I find they are often the same thing or intrinsically related!!! I’m in pain every day!!! Sometimes my pain makes depressed and anxious!!! Sometimes stress triggers my pain!!! Doctors kept trying to give me anti-depressants without looking at my health history or listening to me and it turns out my thyroid wasn’t working right and my vitamin D was deficient and I had sleep apnea!!! Every specialist is biased towards their field and thinks your problems can be solved with their drugs!!! So you see 4 specialists over a year and suddenly you have 7 prescribed medications!!! And the underlying problem hasn’t been treated!!! And those drugs give you new symptoms!!! Once I was prescribed 2 medications in the same day that could have killed me if I took them together!!! Was that a hint??? Some simple blood tests could have cleared much of this up but doctors are pressured to save money in superficial ways that either discourage you from seeking care or end up costing more money in the long run because you didn’t get better so you just start the process again later or end up in the ER!!! I didn’t fit in the risk groups for certain things I had because they said I was a “healthy” male in my mid-20s,” among other shitty excuses!!! It’s weird to be told you’re healthy by the same doctors who are also telling you they don’t know what’s wrong with you!!! And symptomatically I did fit and I had been diagnosed with multiple comorbid disorders!!! I’ve been labeled as “drug averse” because I turn down medications!!! But if I ask for drugs they label me as drug-seeking!!! Doctors also act suspicious when I tell them what other doctors have told me!!! It’s like breh this shit’s in my medical record!!! Wait you didn’t look did you??? And now I’m 33 and I’ve spent 9 years that should have been part of the prime of my life suffering every day!!! How much money could have been saved in ER visits and follow-ups if they had listened to me??? Stop treating me like an advertising demographic before I fucking die!!!